Life Thus Far

Looking back has never been so hard....

Just one year ago, things were progressing wonderfully and everything seemed to be going according to "plan"; but now, I could not say the same. All I can say is that it hurts. Everything on the inside, everything on the outside, everything in between. My life has changed so much in these past few months than it has in my entire life. I'm scared, I sometimes feel alone, and sometimes am overtaken by the emotions. Some would say I did this to myself, and that it's my own game that I am playing; I would say they don't know the half of it.

It seems rather odd for me to say this, but I kind of needed this. The things I have learned, the skills I have acquired, the things I have done, they have all played a pivotal role in my life. I'm not using it as an excuse for justification, but man, things will never be the same. I've realized alot of things about myself that would never have come to actuality otherwise. I've learned a lot of new things that are going to be very important in the coming years. The scales of destiny have tipped in my favor. I know what must be done, I know why things have happened the way they did, I know how things need to be accomplished, and I know what the end result is. No more of this lollygagging and tweedling through life like a robot, it's time to stand up. No more looking for pity from others, no more letting others push me around, no more taking it and not fighting back. There's a new beginning.
If anybody reads this at all, which i dont think anybody does, but if you're out there remember this post. It will be the last......

Ha!

Yay for Christmas! It was a good day to remember the Saviour, spend time with family, and have joyous memories.

Thoughts...

I have finished writing a support letter that I will be sending out to my friends, family, and church family. I pray that God will speak to them through my writings, and I pray that the Lord would show them how they can help support me on my trip to Peru. The staff at Awestar are very kind. They have so much compassion for the people whom they are involved with, and they ask to pray for you everytime you talk on the phone with them. I also have some ideas for fundraising events that i can do to raise money. I just hope all will work out for that.

I was reading my Bible today, and I was just perplexed by how i was picturing the reading. It was so vivid and so in depth. I know God was telling me something about that particular passage that just spoke to me. As the days will progress, the answers should come as well.

Christmas is coming soon! I actually dislike the winter season alot, but i do like Christmas because it is a time where we can fellowship with our friends and family and remember the birth of the Messiah.

Hopefully everything will work out quickly, because i have less than 4 months to raise $$ for the trip! I know God will provide, and i have faith in that.

In Christ,
Cody Enciso
Phil 3:10

Long Time

I'm sorry i haven't posted anything new in the past 2 months....

Things have been going extremely well. Sure I've had trial and circumstances along the way, but God has always been in control. I am amazed at the strength He provides each day to carry on. I am pleased at how my decisions in life have been focused around what God wants for me, and they are working out accordingly.

I plan on going to Pensacola Christian College in the fall of 2009. I will be working towards a degree in Pre-medicine, as well as a minor in missions. I hope to make it into Med-school thereafter. I want to be a Missionary of course, but to have the skills of a doctor would be immensely beneficial. Even now I pray that God will allow me the opportunity 10 years down the road to join an organization that would allow me to be a doctor/missionary.

As for the present, I am utterly excited to have been accepted to go Peru this summer with Awestar!! Jesus has already begun to prepare my heart for the month long missions trip i will be embarking on very soon. I pray for progress, prayer, and support in raising funds.

Aside from all the exciting developements, the rest of my life has been wonderful. I am very grateful that God provides for His children.

In Christ,
Cody Enciso
Phil. 3:10

All One Can Do

All one can do in this life to find solace is flee into God’s Word. All one can do in life is pray. All one can do in life is surrender your whole self to God no matter what the circumstances.

It’s hard to convey what you believe in your heart to the people that are closest to you. My mother, a woman who I greatly respect and admire, does not see the Will of God for my life. I try and tell her over and over again that I feel led to go to a bible college because it is my deepest desire to become a missionary. I want to be a light for Jesus in this dark world, and I strongly feel that His calling for my life is the foreign mission field. My mother seems to think that all I am doing is being arrogant because I want to go away to college, and she thinks I am going to throw my life away.

But in the midst of it all I still find peace. God gives peace to His children! I thank God and Jesus for all that has been done in my life. I thank the LORD that I was able to hear the gospel and get saved. All I want to do is serve Him with my life. I know that if I have to give up everything and just go and serve my Savior, He will provide for my needs. His grace is sufficient for me. I pray that my mother’s heart would be softened and that I would be able to tell her and even show her through my words how passionate I am for the work of the LORD. I am going to do everything that I can to live my life for Jesus. I want to be used to my fullest extent. I know God will provide a way because this is the path He wants me to follow.

Thank the LORD everyday for the breath of life you still obtain. He is only keeping us on this earth because He wants to use us for His purposes.

In Christ,
Cody Enciso
Phil. 3:10

Sighs of Relief

Oh my goodness! These past couple weeks have been a roller coaster ride. So much has happened. I guess I wasn’t expectant of things that were to come, but it all worked out for the best. I’ve really seen the Hand of God upon my life through the circumstances. When I pray, God answers. I ask God for patience, He gives me trials to endure; I ask for help in certain areas, and sure enough He always provides a way. It always brings me back to this: ‘I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me (not exact words). I know that God is almighty, but every time I see the work He does in my life, I am still left in amazement. God is good, and He will lead me ‘ in the way of everlasting’.
The LORD has put a new song in my heart, and I pray that I may be able to finish it soon. I want to use my music to glorify the Lord Jesus! I pray that God would use me as His tool, and help me be even more outspoken for Christ. Christ is my love, and all I want to do is serve Him.

In Christ,
Cody Enciso
Phil 3:10

All Praise Belongs to Our God

This week has been filled with so many mixed emotions about so many circumstances in life. This week has been a hard one for many, but in the midst of it all, one can find comfort in the love of Jesus Christ. I feel as if I should be feeling something different, but I am not. My flesh feels as if it should be in despair all the time, but my heart does not. Through the days, I have found the peace of God in my life. Issues that before would torment my mind with a torrential downfall of emotion and too much thinking, now seem inferior because my focus is on God. The things of the LORD are most important, and the things of this world do not matter. I have seen in such clarity the hand of God working in my life. He listens when I pray, and He has blessed me thus far. I praise the LORD Jesus for who He is, and I praise God Almighty for His guidance in my life. I know things will work out for the best and on God’s terms.

In Christ,
Cody Enciso
Phil 3:10